How do I feel my judgement?
Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2021 2:21 pm
Hi, I'm Victor, a very new guest to this forum. I felt a little too nervous to give a whole introduction. I just wanted to know how others have felt their way through feelings of judgement.
I should mention that this is all very new to me. I only discovered the Divine Truth channel 2 years ago, the first year spent sniffing around for the odd lie and slip ups in Jesus's sessions, then, finding none, spending another year gambling whether or not I wanted to see where this truly goes.
I can't begin to describe how suprised I am by this whole process. My last 3 months were spent diaphragmatically breathing every now and then, like Jesus suggested, feeling the pain in my chest as i did. At first no change seemed to occur, and for a while I thought I was doing it wrong. Then a change did occur. I noticed I was feeling more. I was feeling everything to greater depths. My anger rises much quicker and with less restraint. Songs that used to excite me now wash over me in waves of goosebumps that almost make me tear up. As someone who was previously shut down, I feel out of control. I expected results, but I'm almost upset that I got them. I didn't expect them to come so quickly and so dramatically. This all feels irreversible.
And it's terrifying. And the problem is I don't know how to feel that terror. How do you feel your fear of feeling? Even the thought of talking to God gets me teary, and then i quickly shut the tears down. I know I should attempt to feel why I do this, but this shut-down occurs in such a quick flash that I don't know how to sit in it and feel it.
All I'm requesting currently is an experiment that I can test out to feel my judgement or get underneath it. The diaphragmatic breathing was physical and I could feel the pain in my body, but this judgement feels so intellectual and so quick that I honestly don't know what to do with it.
I want to continue this process. I'm terrified, of course, but my faith in this has increased. I can't imagine how much happier I would be after a release of even one causal emotion. If this is what my own happiness is like, how much greater is divine love? It's all daunting, but I'm excited, and I'd like to get my judgement of my own tears out of the way so I can prob away at this process for more jewels. Any assistance would be greatly appreciated.
I should mention that this is all very new to me. I only discovered the Divine Truth channel 2 years ago, the first year spent sniffing around for the odd lie and slip ups in Jesus's sessions, then, finding none, spending another year gambling whether or not I wanted to see where this truly goes.
I can't begin to describe how suprised I am by this whole process. My last 3 months were spent diaphragmatically breathing every now and then, like Jesus suggested, feeling the pain in my chest as i did. At first no change seemed to occur, and for a while I thought I was doing it wrong. Then a change did occur. I noticed I was feeling more. I was feeling everything to greater depths. My anger rises much quicker and with less restraint. Songs that used to excite me now wash over me in waves of goosebumps that almost make me tear up. As someone who was previously shut down, I feel out of control. I expected results, but I'm almost upset that I got them. I didn't expect them to come so quickly and so dramatically. This all feels irreversible.
And it's terrifying. And the problem is I don't know how to feel that terror. How do you feel your fear of feeling? Even the thought of talking to God gets me teary, and then i quickly shut the tears down. I know I should attempt to feel why I do this, but this shut-down occurs in such a quick flash that I don't know how to sit in it and feel it.
All I'm requesting currently is an experiment that I can test out to feel my judgement or get underneath it. The diaphragmatic breathing was physical and I could feel the pain in my body, but this judgement feels so intellectual and so quick that I honestly don't know what to do with it.
I want to continue this process. I'm terrified, of course, but my faith in this has increased. I can't imagine how much happier I would be after a release of even one causal emotion. If this is what my own happiness is like, how much greater is divine love? It's all daunting, but I'm excited, and I'd like to get my judgement of my own tears out of the way so I can prob away at this process for more jewels. Any assistance would be greatly appreciated.