).Having lived with this man for 44 years and and having been closely associated with gifted Divine Love Mediums for the past 51 years, I might just win the prize for the most heart-wrenching cries to God -- praying with all my heart and soul that I might actually feel the inflowing of His Love into my soul. It's still never happened to me.
There was never such a focus on the difference between the mind and the soul in our Prayer circles until 2015 when, at a pre-retreat gathering in our home Confucius and Augustine facilitated an exercise to help participants understand the difference. The first time I realized there was indeed a difference came in a personal message from Alec when I retired.....6 years ago! And that was after more than 4 decades of praying for Divine Love. So, in my experience, these discussions are relatively "new" in the Divine Love community.....but most certainly what our Celestial Guides and Teachers wish for us to learn and understand.
I have finally come to a place of acceptance....I have given up expecting to have an experience of feeling Divine Love coming into my soul. I appreciate your comment Beth, that the Great Experiment can be misleading - thank you for offering this perspective because I didn't see this perspective before and I agree this must be true for many.
I wholeheartedly agree that more discussion and sharing authentic experiences in the Divine Love community on this topic could be very helpful for many. I do hope you write a book on this topic, Beth! YES! What a service it would be for many.
Where I am now, after receiving many personal messages over the years and having the benefit of living in prayer most of every day, is to finally accept what my guide Martha has told me: that I have an active soul, to accept that I am receiving God's guidance in my soul which bubbles up into my thoughts, and to appreciate my gifts. Augustine has also told me the same thing: not to worry about it - that it's happening whether I'm aware of it or not.
What I do experience in prayer is the presence of the magnificent love of God and the Angels enveloping me....often I feel "wrapped" in a spiritual, light "blanket" that is almost thick! Sometimes I feel God's Love entering my physical being from what I guess is the Crown Chakra; I often feel being uplifted into a higher condition of love, light and vibration. I notice the changes in my thoughts and perceptions have grown more loving over the years. I am beginning to appreciate the impact of my gifts on others. I have felt the agony of deep expiations over the past 4 decades but I can't distinguish the releases from my soul for certain, although I'm beginning to trust in the process. Most of my inner life has been in TERROR as the result of childhood experiences. Unbelievable TERROR...panic attacks... but I would say almost all of that has gone now. Most mornings I wake up BATHED in light and love....as if I' have been sleeping in heaven all night. Sheer bliss. So I have come to change my focus....I'm not intent on having the kind of experiences that others have described. If it comes, it will come.
Kudos to you all for your sharing here, which I hope will continue.
God bless you all,
For now,
Love Jeanne
PS. Al and I are going to have our morning prayer now, and you can be sure I will be praying for the Angels to comment!
